She lost her husband when my dad was 3 years old. My grandpa died in a war. I don’t know how old she was back then. Probably in her early 20’s, I guess. She had five children, but no husband. Must have been a pretty tough one. She raised those kids all by herself. My dad doesn’t even remember his daddy’s face and voice. She lived far from where I lived in Japan. So I could see her just couple times a year. As a child, I always cried when I have to say goodbye to her. I still remember that feeling. Just wanted to stay with her so much. I felt safe with her and she loved me so much. Never compared with my sister and brother which used to happen a lot in my family because they are lot smarter than me and cuter than me. She was a pretty quiet lady, never complained about anything. But when I woulld ask her something, she would always answer me with something witty. I loved that. She told me about my dad when he was a child, she told me how far she could walk when there was no cars and how that made her feel good….lots and lots. That was just so much fun listening to her.
I am having the same feelings now that I had back then just now by writing this. I now remember what it is to feel safe again and that is the most important thing people need for their lives. At least in the physical sence, not in the financial sence, ha ha ha .
I shouldn’t forget this feeling. Even though I have lost many people I have cared about since I have learned what love really is.
The comfort of feeling. I hope I can become a person who can give that comfort safe to somebody I love.
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